Jerry Boutot Music http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com Official Site for Jerry Boutot Music Thu, 23 Oct 2014 20:42:07 +0000 en-US hourly 1 Jerry Boutot is an independent artist, composer, producer, audio engineer, singer-songwriter, multi-instrumental musician, MIDI programmer, and the creator of Jerry Boutot Music. He's an 11th Annual Independent Music Awards Nominee. This podcast contains original music and videos, and may contain an occaisional rant. Jerry Boutot Music no Jerry Boutot Music jboutot@appdataworks.com jboutot@appdataworks.com (Jerry Boutot Music) Jerry Boutot Music Keep Up To Date with All Audio and Video Releases From Jerry Boutot Music music, rock music, indie music, independent artist, electronic music, indie music producer, music videos, new music Jerry Boutot Music http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/images/jerry-boutot-itunes-podcast-image-1400x1400.jpg http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com Spring Hill, FL Waterfall Lyrics Video http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/waterfall-lyrics-video/ http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/waterfall-lyrics-video/#comments Thu, 23 Oct 2014 20:37:25 +0000 http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/?p=45279 Check out the Waterfall Lyrics Video on YouTube Waterfall Lyrics Video Waterfall is the very first song that Alan Morgan and I worked on together. Released on December 28, 2011, it was slated to be the first of about 12 … Continue reading

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http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/waterfall-lyrics-video/feed/ 0 morgan and boutot Check out the Waterfall Lyrics Video on YouTube Waterfall Lyrics Video Waterfall is the very first song that Alan Morgan and I worked on together. Released on December 28, 2011, it was slated to be the first of about 12 songs we would work on tog... Check out the Waterfall Lyrics Video on YouTube Waterfall Lyrics Video Waterfall is the very first song that Alan Morgan and I worked on together. Released on December 28, 2011, it was slated to be the first of about 12 songs we would work on together, releasing each as a single, then remixing and remastering them for an album release. At least that was the plan. We worked on 3 songs together and then the circumstances of our lives both changed and our collaboration came to a stop. We are still talking about working together again, and I hope we can. We do have 9 more songs on the list to be done for our collaboration album. Waterfall is really a cautionary tale, one which should resonate with many people of all ages and stages of life. For me, not having actually written the lyrics (Alan Morgan wrote the lyrics), I can only interpret. But to me they speak to the age old adage, "You don't know what you got till it's gone". Dream of a lifetime slipping through your hands Dream of a lifetime - oh it wasn't my plan How many times have we all stood there, with that "kicked in the head" and "sick stomach" feeling knowing that we just let the best thing in our lives slip through our hands? I for one can, and in fact I wrote an entire album about it: Tip of the Sword, which is a tale of lost love and the stupid decisions that caused it to happen. Let my rage wash it away... Man it wouldn't be real... Wash it away like a waterfall... Just erase it all and take me back in time... Lyrics like those are just rare these days. And so are leads solos like the solos in this song. And bass lines. This song has one very, very cool bass line. I oughta know - I played it :) Love and Prosperity to you ALL! Have an AWESOME Day! Jerry Boutot 50% off Hosting for your Website at GoDaddy.com Need Email Marketing? Try AWeber Get a free trial of Market Samurai Want to increase sales 2, 3 or 4 times? Get Scarcity Samurai Do you need powerful WordPress eCommerce Plugins? Try WP_eStore Make your YouTube videos interactive with Viewbix for Free Schedule all of your Social Networking Posts with SocialOomph Get Radio Airplay for your music with Jango RadioAirplay Get the Ultimate Business Plan Template! Need to market your band, music or business? Contact AppDataWorks, LLC NOTE: AppDataWorks, LLC is my company. Want to learn all about music marketing so you can market your own band and music? Check out my friend John Oszajca’s incredible course called Music Marketing Manifesto – it’ll teach you everything you need to know. Jerry Boutot Jr. no yes <iframe width="560" height="315" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/LU00w0_7AgM?list=UUO57mrsxR5zwPgx_GEQhsEw" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>
Damn The Speed Limit Lyrics Video http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/damn-the-speed-limit-lyrics-video/ http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/damn-the-speed-limit-lyrics-video/#comments Fri, 17 Oct 2014 00:10:01 +0000 http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/?p=39699 Damn the Speed Limit Lyrics Video The story behind the creation of this song is really a pretty crazy tale. My friends and I had just come off of an all-nighter with the help of some “electric koolaid”, ganja, and … Continue reading

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http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/damn-the-speed-limit-lyrics-video/feed/ 0 Damn the Speed Limit Lyrics Video The story behind the creation of this song is really a pretty crazy tale. My friends and I had just come off of an all-nighter with the help of some "electric koolaid", ganja, and lots of beer. Damn the Speed Limit Lyrics Video The story behind the creation of this song is really a pretty crazy tale. My friends and I had just come off of an all-nighter with the help of some "electric koolaid", ganja, and lots of beer. These kinds of nights always ended up with a second day "after-glow" that kept us up riding the wave of awesomeness all day into the next night. It was early in the afternoon when we were all hanging out at my friend Bruce's parents house in the back yard. I remember it like it was yesterday. A small group of really, super close friends. The sun was shining and it was either fall or spring in Connecticut: crystal blue skies and brisk air. Not cold, just invigorating. We were playing frisbee. Bruce bent the frisbee in half and then tried to throw it. The frisbee flew really funny - kinda wobbling and tilting back and forth. This was around the time that the Star Wars movies were big, and I want to say that it may have been around the time the 2nd or 3rd movie came out. So it was natural for me to look up and comment on the Frisbee's flight. I was sitting on the grass cross-legged - when we were kids we called it "Indian Style". I saw Bruce bend the frisbee and throw it, and we all laughed at the pathetic way it flew, and I said to Bruce, "hey that's like Luke Skywalker drunk driving". He laughed, and I stood up and said "get a notebook!!!" The rest is history. I literally sat down and wrote out these lyrics in one sitting, on the grass in the sun on a beautiful day in New England, riding the afterglow of a really fun night with the best bunch of friends I've ever had in my entire life. God, I miss those guys. I should think about getting everybody together for a reunion... Love and Prosperity to you ALL! Have an AWESOME Day! Jerry Boutot 50% off Hosting for your Website at GoDaddy.com Need Email Marketing? Try AWeber Get a free trial of Market Samurai Want to increase sales 2, 3 or 4 times? Get Scarcity Samurai Do you need powerful WordPress eCommerce Plugins? Try WP_eStore Make your YouTube videos interactive with Viewbix for Free Schedule all of your Social Networking Posts with SocialOomph Get Radio Airplay for your music with Jango RadioAirplay Get the Ultimate Business Plan Template! Need to market your band, music or business? Contact AppDataWorks, LLC NOTE: AppDataWorks, LLC is my company. Want to learn all about music marketing so you can market your own band and music? Check out my friend John Oszajca’s incredible course called Music Marketing Manifesto – it’ll teach you everything you need to know. Jerry Boutot Jr. no yes <iframe width="560" height="315" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/WjtPL0C6iy4?list=UUO57mrsxR5zwPgx_GEQhsEw" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>
All That Far Lyrics Video (Morgan and Boutot) http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/far-lyrics-video-morgan-boutot/ http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/far-lyrics-video-morgan-boutot/#comments Thu, 18 Sep 2014 00:13:50 +0000 http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/?p=14361 All That Far Lyrics Video Alan Morgan and I worked on this song as a collaboration together in my Spring Hill, FL studio. Alan wrote the song about his best friend who passed away tragically. He was very ill for … Continue reading

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http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/far-lyrics-video-morgan-boutot/feed/ 0 morgan and boutot All That Far Lyrics Video Alan Morgan and I worked on this song as a collaboration together in my Spring Hill, FL studio. Alan wrote the song about his best friend who passed away tragically. He was very ill for a very long time and finally it took him. All That Far Lyrics Video Alan Morgan and I worked on this song as a collaboration together in my Spring Hill, FL studio. Alan wrote the song about his best friend who passed away tragically. He was very ill for a very long time and finally it took him. Alan was pretty upset by his friends passing, and in true Alan Morgan form, he wrote a masterpiece of songwriting without really knowing just how great of a writer he really is. He just slaps these amazing songs together and he doesn't - in my humble opinion - really understand what the sound like or mean to those who didn't create them. I took this song and crafted around it a perfect blend of emotional intensity that runs the gamut from tender to heartfelt to hope and incredible beauty. The song starts very soft and easy, then transitions into an awesome chorus that has a very nice complimentary bass line. This walking base and somewhat aggressive but at the same time laid back drum track give a sense of independent aloofness to the music that tracks along with this sad and touching song. And as usual, I threw in a really tasty, awesome lead solo that is carefully crafted to support the emotional tone of the lyrics and intention of the song. Love and Prosperity to you ALL! Have an AWESOME Day! Jerry Boutot 50% off Hosting for your Website at GoDaddy.com Need Email Marketing? Try AWeber Get a free trial of Market Samurai Want to increase sales 2, 3 or 4 times? Get Scarcity Samurai Do you need powerful WordPress eCommerce Plugins? Try WP_eStore Make your YouTube videos interactive with Viewbix for Free Schedule all of your Social Networking Posts with SocialOomph Get Radio Airplay for your music with Jango RadioAirplay Get the Ultimate Business Plan Template! Need to market your band, music or business? Contact AppDataWorks, LLC NOTE: AppDataWorks, LLC is my company. Want to learn all about music marketing so you can market your own band and music? Check out my friend John Oszajca’s incredible course called Music Marketing Manifesto – it’ll teach you everything you need to know. Jerry Boutot Jr. no yes <iframe width="560" height="315" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/Bnh39sn3vx0?list=UUO57mrsxR5zwPgx_GEQhsEw" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>
Tip of the Sword Lyrics Video (Tip of the Sword: Track 9) http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/tip-of-the-sword-lyrics-video/ http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/tip-of-the-sword-lyrics-video/#comments Tue, 02 Sep 2014 21:31:59 +0000 http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/?p=3284 Tip of the Sword Lyrics Video Story And now we come to the end of the tale, and it’s much different in reality than any imaginings of it – as is always the case with real life vs. our dreams. … Continue reading

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http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/tip-of-the-sword-lyrics-video/feed/ 0 Tip of the Sword Lyrics Video Story And now we come to the end of the tale, and it's much different in reality than any imaginings of it - as is always the case with real life vs. our dreams. We dream, we wish, we pray, we envision, we project, Tip of the Sword Lyrics Video Story And now we come to the end of the tale, and it's much different in reality than any imaginings of it - as is always the case with real life vs. our dreams. We dream, we wish, we pray, we envision, we project, we intend... but in the end the reality is never what we imagined. And sometimes that is not a bad thing. Not at all. Sometimes, the silver lining inside of the cloud that seems to follow us around is really something bigger. Something more... liberating. Years went by and I had all but forgotten about Sarah. Life went on. My grief, however intense and debilitating, had faded into a memory. I went to school, started working in computers, I had a girlfriend who was really good to me... a car, friends. My life was good. I was happy, at least I thought I was anyway. The damage Sarah did to me emotionally and psychologically never really ever left me. I believe I am affected on a very deep level even today. There is a part of me that always feels... unworthy. It's been an uphill climb to get my head out of that self-destructive state of mind, and for the most part today I am so much better. But I wasn't remotely close to where I am now when she called me out of the blue about five years after she left me. And as the song goes, after all that time, when she finally called, it all came back to me. I made a promise, and so I opened my heart, and my arms, and let her in again. She wanted me back! Exactly what I had dreamed about for so many long and terrible nights, right? But it struck me very suddenly that I had worked hard to get to a place where my life was happy, and stable, and I didn't think of her anymore. What would happen if things didn't work out? I was so fearful of having to relive the pain I experienced for so long after she left the first time that I just could not take the chance of it happening again. I believed that if things didn't work out we could both be destroyed. It was too late. She cried. She wanted me back, and she missed me, and as I watched her weep I felt very sad for her, because I knew something about how she felt. And then it struck me, that while I was suffering a life of living hell after she left, she never cared for me. She never acknowledged my pain - not really. I suffered alone, and at this moment in time I realized that what she was feeling, being rejected by me now, was only the tip of the iceberg compared to what I felt. If she felt pain, then she was only feeling the tip of of the sword she drove into my heart. 'The pain you feel is touching the tip of the bloody sword you drove into my heart so very long ago" It was too late, and I knew if we got together, if we came any closer, the tip of the sword would be driven right through her. There was no small part of me that on a subconscious level - I truly believe - didn't want to make her suffer in some way so she would know the pain she caused me. Time heals all wounds. Or so they say. And it seems that time had healed the wounds left behind by Sarah's abandonment. But as with all healing, there are scars. When the wounds were sore it would have worked but now it's too late and I know that it hurts Yes, when the wounds were fresh, when I was tender and vulnerable, it would have worked. But now I was healed - calloused - covered in scar tissue that she could not break through. It was too late. She was my love, she was my life: but it was time to say goodbye. Tip of the Sword (Title Track): Lyrics by Jerry Boutot After all this time you finally have called I almost forgot who you were by now In the flash of remembering the promise I made I opened my arms right up to you babe But now I’m a man and I’m not very weak And this magic reunion has made me think That we’d both be destroyed if things didn’t work So now it’s too late and I know that it hurts But, the pain that you feel is only touching the Tip of the bloody sword You drove into my heart so very long ago Jerry Boutot Jr. no <iframe width="560" height="315" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/SCMo9lAlXnY" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>
Love Once Lost Lyrics Video (Tip of the Sword: Track 8) http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/love-once-lost-lyrics-video/ http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/love-once-lost-lyrics-video/#comments Sun, 20 Jul 2014 15:10:38 +0000 http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/?p=2579 Love Once Lost Lyrics Video Story Many times in life after we have lived with, dealt with, and left behind strife or trauma, we find ourselves looking back at our experience and taking stock, as if we are looking at it … Continue reading

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http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/love-once-lost-lyrics-video/feed/ 0 lyrics,lyrics video,Tip of the Sword,tip of the sword lyrics Love Once Lost Lyrics Video Story Many times in life after we have lived with, dealt with, and left behind strife or trauma, we find ourselves looking back at our experience and taking stock, as if we are looking at it through the eyes of a stranger. Love Once Lost Lyrics Video Story Many times in life after we have lived with, dealt with, and left behind strife or trauma, we find ourselves looking back at our experience and taking stock, as if we are looking at it through the eyes of a stranger. Or as if it is a fictional story. We know we lived it, but it's difficult to remember the actual pain that we experienced, or the suffering. Women who have experienced childbirth know this. It is often said that if women could actually remember the pain of childbirth as it was while they endured it, they would never do it again. Yet they keep going back because the anticipation of the reward on the other side of that miraculous experience somehow trumps the fear or lessens the memory of pain. In my life, I had moved on. I had grown. I had forgotten the pain, the suffering, the stress and the drama. I still loved her, but I was separated from it, like an outsider. Almost, not completely. I had gone to school to become a Mainframe Computer Operator and that was working quite well for me. I had a very nice girlfriend. Then one day I saw Sarah in a bank line when I went to cash my check. Seeing her brought it all back, and I knew that I had to try one more time. So I contacted her parents and told them to pass a message on to her. I wrote her a letter and gave it to them. And then I moved on. The letter told her all about how much I had lost when she left, and how much I'd learned and grown. Pretty much the chorus of the song sums it up: 'Cause you and me babe, we let it happen so fast Fell in love, took a chance At the start we were happy But just when it seemed you and I were falling apart Everything was breaking our hearts you just went and gave up too easy If we struggled hard together to be in love as we once used to be Then our lives would be so beautiful now So different, somehow Love once lost can be found So life went on and I went on and I forgot that I sent her that letter. Until a couple of more years later, but that's a story for the final song. Love Once Lost (Lyrics) by Jerry Boutot You didn't know me I came along I found you Ooh, I looked into your eyes and I saw you smile We fell in love on such a warm, summer day Then we took our love to a place where the sun would remind us of that day In California we made our home and life was good And then I hurt you very badly and you went away And my heart has cried and my life's been dying since that day But I've prayed I'd make you mine again some day 'Cause you and me babe, we let it happen so fast Fell in love, took a chance At the start we were happy But just when it seemed you and I were falling apart Everything was breaking our hearts you just went and gave up too easy If we struggled hard together to be in love as we once used to be Then our lives would be so beautiful now So different, somehow Love once lost can be found Now time has gone and we are older and I have learned I've realized what I have lost I know I was wrong And I know that I can make it up to you babe If you 'd give me one more chance, I know I can show you a better man Let's get together Let's end this nightmare I love you My heart is tired of this madness baby I need you There is no reason why we can't have a new love affair 'Cause I believe we truly love each other And you and me babe, we let it happen so fast Fell in love, took a chance At the start we were happy But just when it seemed you and I were falling apart Everything was breaking our hearts you just went and gave up too easy If we struggled hard together to be in love as we once used to be Then our lives would be so beautiful now So different, somehow Love once lost can be found   Love and Prosperity to you ALL! Have an AWESOME Day! Jerry Boutot 50% off Hosting for your Website at GoDaddy.com Need Email Marketing? Try AWeber Get a free trial of Market Samurai Jerry Boutot Jr. no yes <iframe width="560" height="315" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/6C8cog1-gE0?list=UUO57mrsxR5zwPgx_GEQhsEw" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>
Since You’ve Been Away Lyrics Video (Tip of the Sword: Track 7) http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/since-youve-away-lyrics-video-tip-sword-track-7/ http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/since-youve-away-lyrics-video-tip-sword-track-7/#comments Thu, 10 Jul 2014 00:06:04 +0000 http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/?p=2561 Since You’ve Been Away Lyrics Video Story I don’t know if you noticed, but a couple of songs ago – right before the descent into self induced mind altering psychedelic self medication, there was a You’ve Been Away Lyrics Video … Continue reading

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http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/since-youve-away-lyrics-video-tip-sword-track-7/feed/ 2 lyrics,lyrics video,Tip of the Sword,tip of the sword lyrics Since You've Been Away Lyrics Video Story I don't know if you noticed, but a couple of songs ago - right before the descent into self induced mind altering psychedelic self medication, there was a You've Been Away Lyrics Video post. Since You've Been Away Lyrics Video Story I don't know if you noticed, but a couple of songs ago - right before the descent into self induced mind altering psychedelic self medication, there was a You've Been Away Lyrics Video post. Not to be confused with this one: the Since You've Been Away Lyrics Video story. The first is the calm before the storm. This one is the aftermath. In real world life story behind this song, I found myself working and living in a small town in Connecticut. Time had passed. Enough time to forget? No. Enough to heal? A little. Since you've been away I have mended my heart Since you've been away I have made a new start I've grown a little stronger - can't wait for you much longer And so it was. I'd healed a little. Gotten over the loss a little. I made a new start, and I couldn't wait around much longer. I needed to get laid, you know? Simple base human needs. I need love and deep inside I'm yearning for it The happiness I've waited for just isn't here It was so true. I had been waiting for what seemed like an eternity for her to come back. I was in Connecticut, where she was - only about a 30 minute drive away. When I came back I tried to see her but she wouldn't. Her family was a wall. I visited one of her best friends and made sure she told her I was back from California. But she never called me, and wouldn't take my calls, and eventually I gave up. I turned my attention to finding a partner, someone I could share some good times with and party with. And though I could not love you I could prove that if I had you Then things would be much better Together we'd brave the stormy weather Now the goal became what usually becomes the goal in cases where someone fucks up royally and has to live it down: prove something. I knew that I had to prove to myself that I could do a better job of holding together a relationship, and if I could prove it with someone else, then I'd be proving to her that things would be much better if she would only come back to me. So I've taken on a woman and the reason should be understood that since you've been away I've had to prove that I could do you good since you've been away I was out to prove something, and I was using another human being to do it. Nice. I didn't see it that way at the time. I was being a good boyfriend. A good partner. Someone that didn't cheat. Someone that didn't make his lover feel less than the prime focus of my world. I could do that with somebody else, but I will always wait till we meet again someday kinda sorta indicates that I was not really "with" who I was with, you know? Since you've been away the taste of love aint so sweet Since you've been away my desire has been weak You know I miss the love that we had for one another What can I say? Sex with Sarah was like dying and going to heaven and meeting God. It was during my time with her that I developed the theory that the reason sex is so taboo in western culture was that it brought you so close to God - the creator - that the religious powers that be did not believe it was in their best interest to encourage this avenue of knowing God lest people just stay home and fuck all the time and never give money to the church or do anything productive. So making sex taboo was very important, and wrapping the whole beautiful soulful spiritual act in a self immolating sense of guilt and depravity was the prime motivator for religion to create a campaign of damning all humans to feel massive guilt for our own bodies and natural desires. But I digress. Nothing was like her. No one tasted like her. No one could elicit the desire in me that she elicited. I give love but deep inside I'm giving it to you You'll never know how much my love for you has grown since you've been away And, there you have it. Every time I gave love, made love, treated my woman with love, I was really giving it to her. And a weird, twisted, way, my love for her grew stronger and stronger all the time. Jerry Boutot Jr. no <iframe width="560" height="315" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/jaOg6A_gWdU" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>
Doctor Psychodelectric Going Home Lyrics Video (Tip of the Sword: Track 6) http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/doctor-psychodelectric-going-home-lyrics-video-tip-sword-track-6/ http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/doctor-psychodelectric-going-home-lyrics-video-tip-sword-track-6/#comments Wed, 02 Jul 2014 15:39:29 +0000 http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/?p=2458 Doctor Psychodelectric Going Home Lyrics Video Story Doctor Psychodelectric Going Home is a tale of hard core escapism into the world of hard core psychedelics and psychotropic substance abuse. It was written to portray the very deep and very frightening emotions of fear, … Continue reading

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http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/doctor-psychodelectric-going-home-lyrics-video-tip-sword-track-6/feed/ 0 lyrics,lyrics video,Tip of the Sword,tip of the sword lyrics Doctor Psychodelectric Going Home Lyrics Video Story Doctor Psychodelectric Going Home is a tale of hard core escapism into the world of hard core psychedelics and psychotropic substance abuse. It was written to portray the very deep and very frighten... Doctor Psychodelectric Going Home Lyrics Video Story Doctor Psychodelectric Going Home is a tale of hard core escapism into the world of hard core psychedelics and psychotropic substance abuse. It was written to portray the very deep and very frightening emotions of fear, anxiety, despair, self doubt, self abasement, and self loathing... the clawing of the thin ice of sanity. This is really two songs: Doctor Psychodelectric, and Going Home. They are listed on the album as one song, Doctor Psychodelectric - Going Home. They are considered a single composition because there is no real end of one and beginning of the next. There is a Segway between the two songs where musically Going Home literally "escapes" or "breaks out" of Doctor Psychodelectric. After Sarah left, after my final goodbye with her over the phone, I did what every red blooded broken hearted human being does: I tried to drown out the psychosis of complete and utter failure with something artificial. For some, this would be alcohol. For others, it might be food. For others, it might be religion. And yet others, they may sink into a deep depression and end the pain with self immolation. Suicide. For me, it was heavy partying, and in particular, LSD and Pot. And 'shrooms. And Peyote. With lots of pot smoking in between. I wasn't much of a drinker but I did start to drink a lot more too. I found a park where all the local druggies hung out at night - I was invited there actually by my friend from work - Lester - who had hooked me up with the "what-if-we-gave-my-parents-these-shrooms-in-a-salad" mushrooms that I believe caused the emotional tipping point that sent Sarah back home to her parents. Lester was a cool guy and a good friend and he kept in touch after I left the company. He invited me to come to the park one night so I grabbed my acoustic guitar and went there. I sat on a picnic table and played some tunes for the group and met Lisa. Lisa and I became lovers and I met a lot of friends through her. My apartment quickly became "the party pad" and all kinds of people were in and out of there. It was on. In Talkin' 'bout California I mentioned "the party never ends" and that's exactly what I created. It was crazy. I honestly don't know how we didn't get busted, but that's probably because almost everybody in the building of 8 apartments were also at my nightly parties. I was always a partier, and a pretty heavy partier at that. But this was something else. Ever see Breaking Bad, in the scenes where Jesse had all the crazy meth-heads in his home tearing up the place? It was almost as crazy as that some times. People were dropping acid, eating shrooms, smoking hash, smoking weed, we had bongs, we had hash on a needle under glass, we had rolling papers soaked in hash oil... it was exactly what this song is talking about in the first lyrics: I need something to help me get through I need something to help me forget I need a powerful mind-blowing stimulant I need the doctor of electric psychedelics I need the doctor with the key to my dreams 'cause the doctor of love ain't available, see I need the doctor of twisted reality to unlock my door of psychic totality I was obviously trying to crush the pain with self-medication. I did not want to think about the pain, the loneliness, the loss... I just wanted to forget. I always thought of LSD as "turning on the electricity" in my brain. I attribute it to unlocking the doors of perception in my mind and waking me up intellectually. I wrote better music, better and deeper lyrics, and generally got deeply in touch with my creative source after experiencing LSD. I believed I could reprogram myself and unlock my hidden dreams and abilities with it. I started getting into it very often. A short time after Sarah left and I quit the company I was working for when we were together, I got a job almost immediately working for a hydraulics company about 30 minutes drive from my apartment. Jerry Boutot Jr. no yes <iframe width="560" height="315" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/z8q43s4mKGA" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>
You’ve Been Away Lyrics Video (Tip of the Sword: Track 5) http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-videos/youve-away-lyrics-video-tip-sword-track-5/ http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-videos/youve-away-lyrics-video-tip-sword-track-5/#comments Fri, 20 Jun 2014 13:29:31 +0000 http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/?p=2450 You’ve Been Away Lyrics Video Story And so she left and never returned. She never called. I was left adrift, with no closure, no direction, waiting for her to call me. Weeks went by and it seemed like forever. When … Continue reading

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http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-videos/youve-away-lyrics-video-tip-sword-track-5/feed/ 1 lyrics,lyrics video,Tip of the Sword,tip of the sword lyrics You've Been Away Lyrics Video Story And so she left and never returned. She never called. I was left adrift, with no closure, no direction, waiting for her to call me. Weeks went by and it seemed like forever. When she first left, You've Been Away Lyrics Video Story And so she left and never returned. She never called. I was left adrift, with no closure, no direction, waiting for her to call me. Weeks went by and it seemed like forever. When she first left, I was so broken hearted, I had to quit my job. Remember the job I got ahead of our trip? That job. It was too painful, too much of a reminder of what we did and planned together. I walked in to work the morning after she left and looked at my Craftsman toolbox - the one we bought together at Sears - and I broke down in front of everybody in the Maintenance department. It was pretty sad. My boss sent me home. I stayed out for a few days and then quit. Remember the days when you could pick up a newspaper and look in the "want ads" and find a job? Those were the days. I did exactly that and got a job practically over the phone with another company (I had to work - we were paycheck to paycheck people and I had to pay the rent). I called Sarah's parent's house and her Grandmother's house almost every night. Nobody would tell me where she was. For a couple of weeks this went on. I called her best friend Leslie and she could only tell me Sarah was "away" and that she didn't want to speak to me. After a few weeks I finally got her on the phone, and man all I could do was bawl my eyes out like a little bitch - begging her to come home. I was so alone, and afraid. And I know a lot of readers might think - what a pussy. Right? Wrong. This was like a death to me. The loss was indescribable. I felt like my heart was torn out. There was nothing I could do or say. All I wanted was for her to tell me that she still loved me, that she wanted me to not worry. I wanted her to know how she had my heart forever. I made a promise to her that I would never forget her, that I would never stop loving her, that I would never get her out of my mind. I just wanted her to tell me that she was coming back to me. "Why did you leave me this way?" The lead solo that follows that line is intended to be dramatic, and lamenting, and sad, and angry -  all at the same time. I think it's one of my best (but I think that of all my lead solos). It is supposed to depict the pain, anguish and despair of that phone call. I told her that I would wait for her forever. If she ever wanted to come back I would open my arms up to her. That I wanted to share my whole life with her. That I would only love her. That I would do anything that I had to do to get her back. I begged her to come home soon. It was the last time I would hear from her for 5 years.   You've Been Away (Lyrics) by Jerry Boutot You've been away for oh, so long Seems like forever to me Ever since you left my side The pain is too much for me I'm sorry baby, I cry and cry When I call you on the telephone It's just I'm so afraid I've lost you forever You don't want me anymore Please tell me that you love me That you want me not to worry I need to hear you say that you love me More than I ever needed to hear it before You have me forever if you want me Oh, darling I'm making a promise to you I'll never forget you I'm never gonna get you out of my mind So all I wanna hear you say is that you're coming back to stay Why did you leave me this way? I'm waiting for you baby I'll wait for you forever If you ever want to come back I'll open my arms up to you I wanna share my whole life with you I wanna love only you I'll do anything that I have to do To share my whole life with you Baby baby baby my babe I really love you so I just want you to know Baby baby baby my babe I really need you so I just thought you should know I'll do anything that I have to do To share my whole life with you Girl I really need you Come home soon Love and Prosperity to you ALL! Have an AWESOME Day! Jerry Boutot 50% off Hosting for your Website at GoDaddy.com Need Email Marketing? Try AWeber Jerry Boutot Jr. no yes <iframe width="560" height="315" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/I7LMgoZdF8E" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>
Oh No Baby Don’t Go Lyrics Video (Tip of the Sword: Track 4) http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/rambleon/oh-baby-dont-go-lyrics-video-tip-sword-track-4/ http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/rambleon/oh-baby-dont-go-lyrics-video-tip-sword-track-4/#comments Thu, 12 Jun 2014 00:25:08 +0000 http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/?p=2435 The Oh No Baby Don’t Go Lyrics Video Story The Oh No Baby Don’t Go lyrics video documents both musically and lyrically the sorrow and lament of loss so deep that even today, after over 30 years, this song makes me … Continue reading

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http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/rambleon/oh-baby-dont-go-lyrics-video-tip-sword-track-4/feed/ 0 lyrics,lyrics video,Tip of the Sword,tip of the sword lyrics The Oh No Baby Don't Go Lyrics Video Story The Oh No Baby Don't Go lyrics video documents both musically and lyrically the sorrow and lament of loss so deep that even today, after over 30 years, this song makes me cry. The Oh No Baby Don't Go Lyrics Video Story The Oh No Baby Don't Go lyrics video documents both musically and lyrically the sorrow and lament of loss so deep that even today, after over 30 years, this song makes me cry. Not just one of those chick-flick cries, but a deep, sorrowful, emotional cry you can feel all the way down to the bottoms of your feet. It was in the fall of ... 1981 I believe. After almost losing Sarah to my own stupidity and short-sightedness, things seemed to get back to normal. I was so happy that she was still with me. This song has soooo much meaning and is so deeply rooted in reality that I thought it would be appropriate to go over the lyrics and break them down in detail, tying each line to an event in reality. All of this really happened. I'm so happy, it's like floating on a cloud Indeed, I was in an elevated state of euphoria that Sarah was still with me. Got my baby, she's gonna stay with me now The truth is, there was nothing - and I mean nothing - that would have me believe otherwise. Everything seemed just fine. She had a meltdown of sorts when we ate the shroom salad and she joked about feeding some to her parents, and she was devastated by my wandering eye and wanderlust, but for the most part we got over the breakdown and things were going good. Almost lost her, but I'm gonna make amends I'm gonna love her every way I possibly can And so I promised to do and so I planned to do. I never saw it coming. I should have seen it coming, but she was just... too.... good! All of her secret plans to leave culminated a couple of weeks later, when she didn't come home from work one night. Wanna hold her and show her how I feel I arrived home from work somewhere around 4:30. On a typical day, she would come home a little after 5:00. Things were really going good and I wanted to show her how much I appreciated her and loved her, so I began making dinner for her, waiting for her to come home. It's getting late - she should be here with me 5:30 came and went. Then 6:00. Then 6:30, 7:00, 8:00 - she wasn't home. I stood by the phone on the kitchen wall waiting for it to ring. I was afraid to pick it up (no caller ID) but at one point I called one of her girlfriends and she told me Sarah had been with her and should be home soon. At 8:30, she came home. What are you doing - I thought you said you'd stay She came in and was acting very strange. Dinner was a lost cause - old and dried up and cold. Just like our failed relationship. It's just I didn't know it till this moment in time. She told me she was leaving. Are you leaving? Your momma's on a plane? She couldn't leave on her own. She needed her Mom to come out to California from Connecticut to help her pack. She was afraid I would lose it, which I did, but she had the benefit of the fact that her Mother would be arriving on a plane at LAX that evening around Midnight. I tell you, it is, after over 30 years, still very difficult for me to put into words the fear, loss, terror, suffering - impossible to come up with the right words. So the chorus of this song represents me, falling to my knees and breaking down in a very big and very sad meltdown. No no no no baby no Please please don't go baby no You never gave me a chance and now you're leaving without warning She was kind, loving, tender, patient. She held me and let me cry. I begged, I pleaded, I did everything I could but it was just too late. We lay on the bed after I had calmed down to a weeping mess. We were talking. She was telling me that she just needed to get away for a while. She told me she would come back. She told me she loved me and didn't want it to end forever - just a break. Every guy knows what that means, but I was just a kid, and I had a huge, trusting, gullible heart. She promised she would call me every day and come back in a couple of weeks. She just needed to be with her parents. At around 9:15, Jerry Boutot Jr. no yes <iframe width="560" height="315" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/OxRtp1IoLLQ" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>
Gonna Fly Lyrics Video – (Tip of the Sword: Track 3) http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/gonna-fly-lyrics-video-tip-of-the-sword-track-3/ http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/gonna-fly-lyrics-video-tip-of-the-sword-track-3/#comments Wed, 04 Jun 2014 00:01:15 +0000 http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/?p=2426 The Gonna Fly Lyrics Video Story In track 3 of Tip of the Sword, we run the gamut of emotions from sadness to excitement to elation, then fall back down to earth in a train wreck of tragic consequences. Sarah … Continue reading

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http://www.jerryboutotmusic.com/my-music/gonna-fly-lyrics-video-tip-of-the-sword-track-3/feed/ 0 lyrics,lyrics video,Tip of the Sword,tip of the sword lyrics The Gonna Fly Lyrics Video Story In track 3 of Tip of the Sword, we run the gamut of emotions from sadness to excitement to elation, then fall back down to earth in a train wreck of tragic consequences. Sarah and I had decided to go out to live in LA ... The Gonna Fly Lyrics Video Story In track 3 of Tip of the Sword, we run the gamut of emotions from sadness to excitement to elation, then fall back down to earth in a train wreck of tragic consequences. Sarah and I had decided to go out to live in LA and we were getting ready to leave. I had already flown out there once and landed a job in the Maintenance department at a company called Teledyne. In the section "Oooh, mama" etc., those four lines are based on a final goodbye meeting that Sarah and I had with her parents. There was a lot of kleenex going around. Sarah felt bad for her parents who were both emotionally distraught at the idea of her leaving to go to the other side of the country. Her mother actually told me to "Take care of my little girl" and her father pleaded with her "please don't go - you're my baby girl". Our close friends were telling us that they hoped to see us someday in the world, and Sarah remarked that the thing she would miss most is the colors of Autumn in New England. We boarded the plane and once we were at cruising altitude we both went into the bathroom and smoked some weed. I know what you're thinking: how did we get away with it? I don't know. We just did. Hence the line "gonna get high when we fly across the sky". We arrived in California at LAX and somehow we got to our hotel in Torrance. I don't remember how. Probably a bus. Not a cab, we could never afford that. We found a motel that rented monthly and we lived right there on one of the main roads in Torrance. Sarah got herself a job right away and it wasn't long that we moved from the motel to a one bedroom apartment somewhere in Carson - I think it was off Sepulveda and Alameda, in that area. We got some furniture and got our cute little place set up and made a home. I met a guy named Lester where I worked and he hooked me up with some shrooms. They were fresh, not all dried up, so Sarah and I made a salad and ate all of them. In about an hour the train was rolling and there was no way to stop it. Everything was going great until she said "wouldn't it be cool to make one of these salads and give it to my parents" and then she stopped talking abruptly - her eyes widened and she began to sink into a visible distress. When I tell you everything stopped, I mean everything stopped. She started freaking out, crying and lamenting what she had said, imagining her parent's intense fear and journey into temporary insanity as if it were real. I finally calmed her down but things were never the same. She wasn't with me anymore. She was there, but she checked out. I started looking around me and seeing all these smoking hot California girls, and well, being the red blooded American male that I am, I wanted to get into all of it. Back then I could have done half a dozen a night. Sarah was like a limp fish with her pervasive depression. I thought - wouldn't it be awesome to have a 3 way? So being the sometimes stupendously idiotic dreamer that I was, I actually convinced myself she would go for it. So I asked her if she would have a 3 way with me and another girl. She said no way (I should have predicted it but I was stoned most of the time) and asked me if I would ever sleep with another girl. I told her that if some hot chick wanted to "do me" I would not be able to say no. Sarah freaked out and I really should have seen it coming - you know, what was coming next but I didn't. I was guilty of the same thing most people are guild of: self delusion. Thinking the words "I'm Sorry" will fix anything. "I'm sorry" fixes a mistake like the one I made just the way "I'm Sorry" fixes broken china after you smash it on the floor. So I begged her to forgive me and not leave me. I crossed a line and I could see how hurt she was, and I thought I had convinced her - and maybe I did for the moment - to stay. I hope you enjoy the Gonna Fly Lyrics Video.   Gonna Fly (Lyrics) by Jerry Boutot You and I gonna fly outta here Jerry Boutot Jr. no yes <iframe width="560" height="315" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/AYKiMU8Lqz8" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>